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today is wed.. n thr goes darling 3rd day in army.. sry darling.. cheryl fail today.. cheryl has been tryin hard to b strong for the past few days n she did.. succeed for 3 days without crying.. n today.. cheryl failed.. hw i wish my darling was here to talk to me .. to hear me talk.. to let me cry to.. cheryl feel so lonely.. so lost.. tt she jus wanna cry.. tmr cing doctor.. but cheryl feels scared... she wanted to c a doc but she feel scared.. dun tink tt she feel comfortable saying out tings infront of a stranger.. cheryl suceed in keeping herself in gd status for 3 day.. but she jus failed today... she jus so wanna be alone nw.. so she off her hp.. cox she dun wanna disturb ppl .. de onli way to does tt is to off her hp n keep herself away frm others.. i m realli nt feeling alright.. guess today cheryl should jus force herself to slp early but den she will wake up early if she does so.. n she fear wad will her feeling be like when she wake up tmr.. cheryl so wanna go for drink.. tinking should she sneak out of the hse at night when her parent r slping to go drink.. realli realli realli feel like...everyday cheryl will jus look at the sky.. tinking wads darling is doin now... is darling okie.. is he xing ku in the forest.. bcox she totally has no idea hw he is doin.. worrying does nt help.. the onli ting tt she could do is jus to wait till fri or sat.. cox she dun even noe when darling bookin out.. looking at the sky outside now.. tinking wad is he doin.. worrying tt his rashes may get worst.. doc say is fungal infection.. all she can do is jus to look at the sky n tinking wad is he doin.. n wondering hw is he... so wanted to travel.. but can she? she noe she will enjoy herself n be happy when she travel.. but darling in army.. dun even noe can travel nt.. hai if nt wrong muz sign someting.. well.. i guess i jus better dun put too much hope.. realli nt feeling okie.. should i go for a drink ltr? but i noe my gastic dun allow.. hmmm..but i realli wanna...
* oINkz * ---- Wednesday, July 29, 2009 3:29 AM
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<-- WelComE tO yAng n 