yest wasnt realli gd..
cheryl break down ti the extend tt she nv try b4.. its so much worst.. after mitting her friend.. she jus break down.. she went loitering alone near her hse in a very quiet place n start crying by herself... in a way she nv ever cry b4..
she wanted to find someone talk to her .. but she realli duno whu.. all she does is to sit thr n cry all by herself..
she keep finding darling... n finally he called her bk..
during tt moment she was alone she tot of lots of ting.. but she told herself she cant..
i duno y.. i realli duno y.. i jus feel so tense n lost control sudd.. to the extend tt i realli wan do anyting to make myself better..
darling manage to calm me down alittle yest.. n ask me to go hm.. but soon lights out alr.. n i was thr alone again.. tryin to calm myself even more..
n today.. i keep waking up on n off frm 5+ 6.. i trieed to breath in n out.. calm myself dwn.. but i m realli tense down.. i cant find anyone.. darling is nt thr wif me .. i cant find him..
i duno whu to find i realli duno.. all i does is to cry..
i noe i m a nuisence a trouble.. i alr tried for the past 3 days.. onli 2 days successful..
i realli miss u darling.. onli u will alway b thr for me to talk to.. but nw i hav no one..
i m realli tired of asking ppl out.. tis wk tues n sat off.. onli mon morning shift.. de rest afternoon shift.. but tues gg out wif poly friend.. cox nan de all off..
darling i realli wan u nw.. i cant find anyone..
i realli duno hw long can i survive.. i tried i alr tried..
counting down 8 more days...
* oINkz * ---- Friday, June 19, 2009 5:23 PM
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