Si Meh and his house

as promised.. photo.. tis is rico cake.. hmm to me look abit girl la.. haha.. HAPPY 21TH BDAY MY LAO DI.. n guess i spend half of my cake smashing him.. din take grp photo wif him cox de cliqu too pathetic..

n tis is me carryin siti baby.. he is darn cute.. 3. someting kg.. omg.. he look like a chinese isnt it?

n tis.. is the cute little baby!!!.. awww he is jus so adorable...

yest went tamp mall wif my family.. n papa spon me one dress which cost 42buck!! hurhur... THANKS PAPA..

sniff.. my darling is gg in army on the 13th jun.. so fast.. left bout 5 more wks onli.. sniff..

i noe ppl dun support us.. cox of tons of reason..

though u r nt rich.. shld say poor .. to the bottom..

cant bring me go out play.. cant bring me go eat nice nice food which i alway did in the past..

but i realli c the effort of u changing jus cox of me.. tryin to b responsible.. tryin to giv in to wadever ting even it nt ur fault at all.. jus to let me feel better.. tryin to quit smoking..

thanks darling.. love ya..

all those ting tt happen for tt last few mths. realli make me grow i tink.. it let me c clearly whu r those whu realli being thr for me.. listening to me.. whu realli understand me.. n whu realli try to tink for me..

it teach me hw to alway tinks ting on both side..

n thanks to those friends whu have been thr for me..

if ppl were to udnerstand me well .. i realli dun like n cant bear to c ppl sad or get hurt or even quarrel cox of me.. but eventually tings still go wrong.. no matter hw i try..

"do i realli hav to do tings to tt state tt i dun wish to?"

been tinking alot alot alot today.. n can u imagine tt i jus broke down in my lect today.. but no1 c.. cox i jus lying on the table acting tt i m slping..

i m seriously nt feeling gd.. i feel so in btw.. nt as in in btw ppl.. but in btw of wad i shld do.. i reali dun wan to do tings to tt state tt i dun wan to.. cox i jus hate to hurt ppl ..

my wish..

is jus wan ppl to b happy..

myself to be happy..

n live my life peacfullyy..

but de more i wish.. the more opp it go.. so i tink for nw.. i should jus stop wishing for tings.. maybe tings will get better...

feeling mentally n physically tired.. its time i shld slp.. night ppl ..

still i jus hope (but nt wish).. i dun hav to go to tt extent of doin tings to tt state.. friends r impt to me.. n i treasure all friendship.. n of cox my darling too..

* oINkz * ---- Monday, April 27, 2009 7:15 AM