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cheryl 3rd posting for the day.. she jus wan a place to say out her feeling... she tot this blog is one.. but now.. she no longer will post any entry anymore... frm now onward she will keep everyting .. all her feeling to herself.. no one even bother to listen to her patiently.. tryin to understand things tt she wanna said.. trying to figure out y she does tings.. the onli ppl whu realli listen to her patiently was xiu ling.. she is the onli one whu ask me wad realli happen n listen to me patiently.. she wun scold me .. she will jus listen ... cheryl is at the edge of killing herself now.. but she is controlling ... she onli left 10% of tolerant.. she is scared tt tt 10% will b gone soon.. before any of u scold me.. tink for urself.. in the past u all also cut urself.. does tt mean i hav to giv all of u a tight slap!.. i have enough hurt from him.. stop adding on tings to my wound.. i hate it when ppl keep asking me go IMH.. I NOE I M SICK.. BUT BEFORE U SAY TINGS TINK OF PPL FEELING... stop assuming tings .. nv bother to ask me wad happen n jus assume it cox of wad u r tinking.. let me tell u the real reason y i cut myself.. cheryl jus feel so hurt after tt sentence was said to her: " ur voice went right through my ear n shock me.. u said u will stop disturbing me.. but its still the same.".. fine.. since i m such a pest den i m jus finding ways to stop myself frm contacting ppl.. i m nt running away frm tings.. i even tried n face it.. but when tings was said to hurt me .. i jus feel so break down easily.. so STOP ASSUMING I M RUNNING AWAY FRM THINGS.. IF I M RUNNING AWAY DEN I WUN EVEN WANNA MIT HIM... i cut myself cox i wanna tell myself.. REM WAD R THE TINGS HE SAID TO U.. REM WAD R THE TINGS HE DONE TO U.. REM ALL THE WORDS TT HE SAID TO HURT U.. N HE FIND U A PEST SO STOP SMSING PPL... this is the onli way to stop myself frm contacting him.. i noe its stupid but wad other way i can find? n to u.. fine.. if tts wad u r saying.. me.. seeking attention.. fine!!.. ur this sentence of words.. make me feel like killing myself more... u r alway right.. wad u assume is alway right too.. i m wrong.. wadever i did its all to seek attention..is tt okie? ..if it wasnt tt words u used to said me .. i wun start all this.. i noe i m a pest to u.. if u even bother to tink twice about the way u said tings to me.. or if u even bother to tink twice b4 u say things to me.. i wun b feeling like i m a pest .. i wun b forcing myself nt to sms u anymore... i rem u once said bout my ex jie-fu: " he? such a lan guy" cox he like other girl cox he beat my sis.. den wad bout u .. u like other girl too isnt it? onli left wif u din beat me.. but u said tings to hurt me more.. esp when i m sick.. i find it even hard to control my emotion... cheryl is at the edge of killing herself now... she feel like slashing herself more.. esp after wad he n she had said.. cheryl is tinking.. y nt i should jus try my luck.. to slash at my wrist n c whether i die..? if i dun den its too bad.. she is controlling herself nt to.. but she realli want.. if cheryl realli did tt.. she wanna say..- derrick thanks for keeping me acc.. trying to make me laugh.. tryin to talk to me when i nid someone.. listening to me when i cry n find u.. even when u r slping.. or when u r busy working u nv fail to keep me accompany.. thanks for being such a darling... hope u find ur true love soon.. - von.. sry to make u disappointed.. cheryl realli try veri hard.. she alr told herself nt to hav anymore cut when u saw me yest.. but tings keep hurting me .. from wad the both of them said.. n thanks.. u r the onli one whu even bother to ask me wad happen after u noe tings.. though i nv say tings to u.. thanks... derrick.. whr r u now? cheryl nid ur help.. she nid u to be wif her now.. she nid ur shoulder.. she nid ur crap.. she nid u to make her laugh now.. she nid u to b wif her now.. so she will survive till the night .. cox she is realli at the edge of killing herself.. this time rd cheryl wun fake to laugh anymore.. cox she cant laugh out... she wanna hug u n cry now.. she wanna ur crap to make her forget her idea of slashing herself.. but derrick is working now... cheryl is still controlling herself.. nw she onli left wif tt 8%..
* oINkz * ---- Sunday, March 01, 2009 2:45 AM
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