okie.. first day of cheryl battle lost.. its easy to say n easy to tink.. but afterall its nt easy..
going all those places which bring me memory it hurts tinkin hw happpy we use to be.. i hate to go those places nw... cheryl hate to go shopping nw.. or shld i say nt hate but is phobia of gg those place..
nw cheryl dun even wan to interact much wif her dog.. it bring her memory.. she feel like sending her dog away but she cant b so irresponsible.. n she noe she will regret doin so...
went over to find derrick at his hse.. tot wld make me happy.. jus cox of a stupid sentence i ask of.. make me break down.. but somehw i found tt alone wif him at his hse make me even break down.. it remind me of him.. hw we used to b tgt.. lucky si call us to chat n i was happier.. but it didnt last long..
n oh well.. when i haven even reach his hse.. i make a stupid mistake.. he stayin 257a n guess wad.. i went to 258a nt knowing the blk in the 1st place tot since both a so is the right block.. went up to lvl 12 n come out c hw come diff deni notie i went wrong blk..
cheryl wanted to be dote like used to be.. sometime she even think of jus getting another guy to occupied her.. tinkin will it be able to help? .. but all those is jus cheryl's thought.. she wanted to but she told herself she wun ever get into a relationship anymore.. she is afraid of being hurt.. she is afraid of all those ting.. nw to her.. her friend is the most impt ting.. they kept her company.. cheryl wun get into a r/ship anymore she wun..
hasnt been eat much ever since tt day.. n ppl if u c me like thinner alot de next time u c me dun b shock.. cox i everyday also onli eat 2 meal.. n each meal i nv even eat more then 1/4? n i din drink much .. i feel hungry but after eatin tt few spoonful i m full n feel like vomiting..
well.. cheryl is tryin to b strong easier to say den done..
derrick.. ur repair shop doesnt seem to work now.. unless si come..
* oINkz * ---- Sunday, February 01, 2009 4:26 AM
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