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cheryl is crying nw.. she has jus come hm after mitting xiu ling.. she hate her mother does she hav to dig out everyting.. keep askin me y my friend din come our hse anymore.. y broke off? wad.. wad u wan me to tell u.. COX HE DUN LOVE ME ANYMORE COX HE DOESNT REALLI LOVE ME COX HE LIKE OTHER GIRL.. wad u wan me to tell u.. JUS STOP ASKIN ME THE REASON STUPID MOTHER.. plz dun agitated me plz dun.. i m feeling scared again.. n to u.. plz dun sms me.. i duno u is realli care for me.. or jus guilty for treating me like tt.. do u noe i hav a hard time forgetting u.. if u dun wan me to start to rely on u again.. den plz stop msg me.. i noe u jus wanna show ur concern.. do u noe tt when u msg me.. i will tink of u.. i will tink of the past i will tink of hw u treat me.. i will keep on wanna msging u.. do u noe tt everyday i hav the urge to msg... n everytime i hav tt urge i realli feel like throwing my hp away.. do u noe hw scared i m nw.. do u noe hw much i realli wan to forget ting.. but its so hard.. do u tink i dun wan to tink positively.. i wan .. but its so hard to control.. i m feeling so scared when i m hm.. facing a stupid mother keep asking me de reason.. facing a dog tt bring me damn alot of memory.. facing a rm tt keep remind me of ting... i hope for ur concern.. i hope for ur care.. but wad.. it jus make me rely on u.. wanting u to reali care for me.. but tts nt possible.. nt possible at all i noe.. true love r jus hard to find.. finding someone whu realli love u.. whu will stay wif u after knowing ur illness.. will understand u for everyting u hav done (even those u nt willing).. whu will stay wif u 24hr... whu will realli care for u.. whu allow u to rely on.. whu will stay wif u no matter wad happen.. all this is so hard to find.. n dar.. treasure han.. cox i noe he realli care for u.. he make u grow up .. he make u feel bless... he giv u happiness.. dun b like me.. cheryl is realli tired of living .. ppl alway say life is short so u muz treasue every moment.. but to me my life seem so long.. i jus wish it wld end nw.. ppl alway telling me to tink postive try n occupied urself.. i noe.. sayin is easy but its so hard to do.. eating de medicine make me feel like vomiting the whole day.. cheryl is feeling so tired.. doin someting interested her.. to occupied her.. ppl telling me.. but i duno wad to do.. evryting i do halfway through i will stare to daze.. n start wondering off my mind.. but somehw wif xl accompany today.. i din manage to tink of ting.. BUT WHEN I COME GM MY FUCKING MOTHER MAKE ME LOST CONTROL.. Y U MUZ ASK SOO MANY TING U NOE IT AGITATED ME N MAKE ME FEEL SCARED MAKE ME REM TING.. i m lostig control of myself now.. plz plz god stop me.. ppl if u free plz ask me out plz.. n nv promise someone or say someting tt isnt from ur heart.. because when tings happen.. tt someone noe it wasnt true its double worth of hurting.. i wish for ur concern.. i wish for ur care.. but ur concern n care somehw make me feel luan.. it nv giv me hope cox i noe theres no hope no miracle..n ppl if u tink u realli found someone u realli love... treasure them .. n ppl if u tink tt u realli love tt ppl.. den make sure u understand everyting.. b willing to stay wif him/her when tings happen.. nv start wooing someone bcox u desire for love.. make sure u realli love her/him.. be willing to stay by him/her whenever ting happen.. cheryl regret.. so dont be like her.. n nw she has to face her illness.. no matter he is worth or nt worth for ur love.. as ppl say.. he cheated on u..hes nt worth for ur love.. but she noe tt he once care for her.. although tts nt realli the true true love.. n once again i nv said tt to want for ur return.. its jus a part of my feeling.. wad cheryl wan is true love.. someone whu will keep by her side.. understand her .. understand tt all she done in the past is nt wad she wanted to do.. n nw she is facing the problem.. alone.. but nvm...cheryl noe tt she has to tink postive.. but sometime she jus cant help tinkin tt she is an alien.. diff frm other ppl.. she is jus a crazy girl.. n no one will love a girl like her.. cox de ppl nid a hard time.. nid a hard time to tolerate her.. nid to take time n talk sense to her when she start to do ting.. have to b patient wif her.. whu? whu is willing to find n love someone so troublesome.. i bet none..mum plz stop askin me.. i dun wan to lost control.. plz.. i feel so lonely at hm .. it make me lost it giv me memory
* oINkz * ---- Thursday, February 05, 2009 2:39 AM
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