attachment for 1 wk.. n all i can say is I HATE TIS WARD.. though some of the nurse r good.. onli VERI FEW... n de nyp student yr 2 one.. SUX LIKE HELL.. kaoz... i pray i will nv ever wanna work wif them anymore.. 1 act like she veri li hai.. everyting wanna snatch n do... den say alot.. till she veri pro.. another.. act hardworking infront of de CI den behind instruct me do thing.. n she dwn thr lookin at de chart onli wa lao eh... on fri i do so many wrong ting n keep on gana scolding.. even nt my fault also gana scold... i feel so stressed.. exam in 2 wk time n i haven study much.. i'm stress.. i feel like giving up.. i m so stress.. particularly crying evert night... tmr attachment again... i m so scared i dun wanna go.. i feel like running away frm everyting... n for de past few day till today.. my mood was so damn bad.. n today someone selling mui qi cheated our money.. n thr i was quarreling wif them in public.. shouting tt they cheat my money.. cheat me 6 dollar.. i buy tt mui qi onli 4buck say i buy 10buck den add alot in say free one free one... ended up my sis come den die also wan weight .. tt boss den giv us our money bk say dun wan do our business... so any body plz dun provoke me for de rest of de duno hw many wks.. i m so bad temper recently.. thz.. haizzzzzz stress me....
* oINkz * ---- Sunday, January 27, 2008 5:19 AM
started attachment.. n i m realli feeling so stress... looking far .. my exam is jus 3 wks awhile n i haven even study anyting.. n i duno anyting... yest have afternoon shift n today ish morning.. i barely slp for onli 4+ hrs.. i m so tired... have to study through n write my 4 page reflective journal. i duno hw i m gg to survive.. passing my exam ... everytime i tink of hwhwhwhw... my 4 moduele haven study yet .. my head hurts.. now my leg hurts too.. after walking ard 7 n half hrs... n with tons of ting nt done... with so little slp.. i feeling so slpy nw.. n yet muz at least write half of my reflective journal... i m feeling so stress.. i jus nid some comfort.. waiting for jus a sms.. to make me happy.. but all i get is forget... my heart reali sink.. y m i mostly being forgeted? m i realli nt tt impt? i m feeling so worn out nw.. tmr attachment again.. guess my leg gg broke again... got some staff alway ask student do tings.. so wad we r student.. u also got ur pay one OKIE!
* oINkz * ---- Thursday, January 24, 2008 4:00 AM
hee.. yest went SHOPPING wif poot to buy new yrs clothes... n then i bought lots n lots of ting.. a bag.. a shoe n a shirt... hee.. shopping is always fun...thz poot wif shopping wif me...shopping remind me of hw i used to go shopping wif dar... n i starting to miss it...wondering when is de next time we go shopping tgt again...haiz...attachment is tmr... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..... wondering hw tis ward is gg to b like... they say de nurese thr nt gd at all... wish me gd luck... guess its a period of time whr my temper gg to b bad n whr i m gg to b stress up wif both my attachment n exam again..nvm.. will try to cope wif it..
* oINkz * ---- Sunday, January 20, 2008 9:19 AM
well.. today went to a cafe wif my poly friends.. it sort of like mind cafe.. n can play lots of board game n its was quite fun.. $6 frm 2 to 6 for student wif free flow of drink... hee.. somewhr in clark quay.. heehee.. next time noe whr to go wif my sec sch friend.. nt a bad place... its was fun..n den went to funan.. n find jinhong cox jingyi wan buy lappie n jinhong working at acer.. hee.. fun mitting up wif old friends.. tts de part tt is happy in life.. mitting up ur long time no c friends... n we played till so crazy... jus like we used to be like... haha... playin while he's working.. sound bad...today someting make me so fed up... we got stimulation lap.. n its like some sort of in real life scenerio in hospital wif medikin tt can talk... my lecturer said tt onli 2 morning nurse nid to wear uniform.. the night nurse can wear per normal n change into scrub.. then my friend nv wear lo.. n then tt idiot lecturer started scoldin her for being so inproffessional n its nt called stimulated cox of her nt wear her uniform.. but it is HIM whu said tt no nid lo... okie lo.. so i said but SOMEONE said no nid wear de.. n den he scold me.. wad kind of fuckin shyt is tis sia...i m nt in wrong lo.. he did say night nurse no nid wear lo.. n nw he accuse us of nt being professional n nt responsible... hw can he be like tt... two faced sia.. in class treat us so gd lo.. den sudd wif nursing management infront den say like tt.. bootlicker... nw i c de real him sia.. in lecturer evaulation still write excellent for him.. regret so sia...hai having serious headache for bout past 1 wk.. duno y... busy wk starting next wk... attachment den exam .. hav to rush for exam n attachment... n afte attachment come hm muz study.. whr got de energy... hai.. duno i will be able to cope wif it nt.. might collapse someday... whr got ppl set like tt one.. attachment finish next wk exam.. we nt superman or superwomen sia...
* oINkz * ---- Friday, January 18, 2008 6:42 AM
long time no update le.. last entry is a happy one... I M SO IN A DAMN BAD MOOD NW... nw.. i realised i mayb having some disorder bout emotion.. i got so upset n fed up.. i keep beating my leg... pulling my blanket... i dun wan to.. but my anger like take over me... i m realli gg bonker soon... or shld i say psychology disorder? i sms u b4 hand yet no ans... call n call n call... i got so upset n fed up... u even scold me IDIOT.. nw i feed both upset n bad mood... ya correct wad an idiot m i... IDIOT IDIOT ME... I M AN IDIOT! CAN !!!!!! I M JUS AN EMOTIONAL PSYCHOLOGICAL DISODER IDIOT... ITS ALL MY FAULT.. SHLDNT HAVE TELL U B4 HAND SO I WUN B SO ANGRY... I M JUS AN IDIOT...
* oINkz * ---- Thursday, January 17, 2008 3:46 AM
hee... yest my bday... 20th yr old le.. no more den 1 digit infront le.. sooo fast....
anyway i realli did enjoy myself alot lot lot...
hee... lets go by usual...
went to sch first as usual... n go for lesson which make me doze off again... my bio class.. haha.. then i try to make myself awake by takin de doreamon candy box frm my friend n starting drawing in my book haha... n tts make time go pass real fast.. cox with a sudden blink... de lesson end le wor...
den go out of class... n my poly friends..zhiwei, fadhlina, xiu ling, evon..sheena ..jingyu n jess... giv me a surprise wif a cake n de present... so many ppl thr embarrassed sia... n when i open up de present.. by de look of it ... i was so happy.. cox its a roxy perfume tt i curve for.. 30+ wif onli 30mls lo.. thanks guys for de gift.. de cake n de card =)
den after tt went to mit poot.. hee... he wear till so formal... n he giv me my present too... a sheep which i name it mehmeh... n a sheep cup.. haha i jus duno y nw i like sheep so much.. sry dar for copying u liking sheep haha but i jus duno y i got attracted by it.. opps... n poot make me a card himself.. haha.... love it lots.. thanks... MUACKSSSSSSSS.....
then met up wif yo n si... bring yo to reborn hair.. my god i realli like yo hair lots... heees.. n thr after de reborning we went to mac n wait for von... haha sit thr for bout 45 min? n we get real bored so decided to go bugis first..
met up wif dar thr.. hee.. my girl... den loiter ard at sit at a corner to wait for von n jialing come.. n when they ask us to order food first.. we all went in till we r like one hungry ghost.. haha too hungry..
n at V8, they giv me a surpise... got poot..dar..si..jialing..von...yo..jian...n again i feel so paiseh... haha so many ppl thr... n they giv me a present.. n i find it quite special.. 20 small gift for me... which gt.. a cup, 2 nail polish... 2 choco..etc...cox i m 20 yrs old... haha... thanks lots girls... i like de present real lots...!!! muacks
n dar gave me a necklace...so sweet of her.. which i m askin her wanna buy nt when we went shopping tgt... haha i like it lot lot.. nv tink till u will buy me another present.. haha THANKS SOO MUCH.. muacks!
the gift n card tt my poly friend gave me =)..
my meh meh n her home (cup)...
n de card toot make
de 20 gift my friend giv me... haha .... special ba...
close up look...
de necklace tt dar giv me.. she got de BEST n i got de FRIENDS... hee
overall rating for de day.. 8/10... overall rating for my present... 10/10 hee.... THANKS ALL MY FRIENDS.. MY POLY N SEC SCH.. N DAR.. N OF COX POOT FOR DE GIFT!!
I LOVE IT LOTS!~~~~~~
* oINkz * ---- Wednesday, January 09, 2008 5:06 PM
yawn .. sch start for bout 3 days? haha duno y ever since new yr.. i've so slpy... keep dozing off during lesson.. haha... yawn ... sch start till nw .. everyday busy wif pro den attacgment...exam coming le.. after tt attachment again... i wan slpppppp... haha hmm countdown... 5 more days to my bday? say de truth.. duno y dun hav bday mood at all.. haha last time when bday comin i will alway look forward to it... but then tis yr no lei... duno y... haiz... step into de 20 digit le.. awwwwwwww..... old le old le... attachment coming le wor... yawn ... no more longer time to slp soon... will c me havin my panda eye soon haha yawn ending here.. muacks
* oINkz * ---- Friday, January 04, 2008 4:04 AM
happy new yr everyone!...
well yest was de first time i can go countdown with my friends.. happy happy me... first time ever! i manage to physco my parent.. yup but still i cant stay overnight outside..
went to amk thr to countdwn coz tink town area sure veri crowded... met up wif wei he n kok cai n his bro n 2 nt veri wlecome ppl.. duno whu is them...(nt derrick n dawn,, someone we dunoe)though its quite boring at first.. saw a crown.. is tt spell like tis? haha making balloon n its free.. i get so entu so i Q for one n they scold me siao... its real a lot of ppl n i quite for bout 45 min? haha... n i got so paiseh when in de train...
n after tt jl si n jx came over to my hse to ton.. but then hor we got so tired.. we din manage to watch de 2 vcd we rent...  my bAlloon.. so big lo
jialing bearbear... me n jx take for her de wor... today.. first day of 2008... i guess it wasnt a happy starting of de yr... it really wasnt .. duno y.. i jus feel tears dripping dwn ... i feel kinda lonely? ... anyway i jus duno y tears keep flowing dwn... sch tmr make me sian... i still haven enjoy my holi enough... tears tears plz go away... sometime i jus feel tt life hav no joy n fun at all.. hw i wish it could end someday soon... but anyway.. i realli did enjoy yest count dwn ... guess perhaps its de most fun time for my yr 2007... i means as in de one i enjoying de most... anyway i wanna thanks ppl for de care they hav given me all along in 2007... all my sec friends.. jia von si jl guan.... n of cox my poot.. alway trying to acc me n taking care of me.. i love u.. muacks hmmm.... nvm kinda depressed i duno y.... wanna put in happy mood but seems hard... end here ba
* oINkz * ---- Tuesday, January 01, 2008 4:42 AM
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