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hmm.. darlin suffering frm chicken pox... hope he can get well soon soon... noe its xing ku but also muz ren.. giv u kiss muackz... 我 觉 得 好 孤 单 好 孤 单.. 也 觉 得 好ｌｏｓｔ... 我 不 知 道 自 己 要 舍 麽 就 会 胡 思 乱 想也 不 知 道 自 己 可 以 做 舍 麽.. 好 想 好 想 哭.. 就 连 在 学 校 读 书 的 时 候.. 眼 泪 也 不 知 不 觉 流 下.. 忍 着 泪 读 书.. 我 讨 厌 孤 单 每 当 我 一 个 人 的 时 候.. 为 了 让 自 己 不 想.. 只 好 在 每 一 分 钟 都 在 想 有 舍 麽 东 西 可 以 做.. 可 是 现 在 的 我 只 可 以 读 书.. 有 时 我 邻 愿 自 己 每 被 生 出 来.. i miss my darlin.. tink de next time i c him will b wks ltr.. when he recover.. but den tt time shld be my exam peiod follow by his exam n my attachment.. all i wishes for now.. is darlin fast fast okie.. acc me study.. cox i realli cant study in at hm.. i nid someone to b wif me.. dne i can concentrate.. n i wan to hav a gd rest.. no exam no attach,ment but tt day is still long behind.. spare me plz.. haiz wondering hw can i gonna tolerate yr 2 n 3.. i m goin bonker... veri veri veri soon i misses all of u...
wait n wait n wait.. till de dayz.. de last day of life
* oINkz * ---- Wednesday, January 31, 2007 4:47 AM
hai... its sun morning.. n i jus wake up frm a nightmare.. still feeling so scared now though.. haix... ltr gg out wif papa n mama.. but it seems so boring.. gg chinatown somemore ...sign* its so bored... feelin so moody le.. haix....gg wif them also duno can do wad.. moody moody y m i alway so moody? haix.. i dun wan toooo... dun wan........ 我 好 想 念 你 们 啊... endin here...
wait n wait n wait.. till de day i smile n laugh frm inside my heart.. but when?
* oINkz * ---- Saturday, January 27, 2007 5:15 PM
hmm.. onli clever ppl will noe hw to figure out hw to read de chinese letter.. von.. u cant read?? haha man man figure out bah.. dardar.. li hai of u wor.. clap*..for dardar..muackz von man man figure wor.. =P 今 天 真 是 个 无 聊 的 日 子.. 约guan 逛 街 可 是 不 到 两 个 钟 头 就 回 家 了.. 真 无 聊.. 不 过 也 好 久 没 看 见 她 了.. 所 以 无 所 谓.. 我 好 想 你 们..esp dardar.. 我 爱 你.. 突 然 好 想 写 个 故 事．． 可 是 想 想 还 是 算 了 吧.. 那 个 故 事 就 让 她 在 我 心 里 吧.. 下 一 次 再 写 吧... 就 写 到 这 里 吧... wait n wait n wait.. till de day.. hmm... i grow old?? n hav my own freedom frm eevrything.can i?
* oINkz * ---- Friday, January 26, 2007 5:20 AM
终 于 可 以 写 华 文 了.. 知 道 因 该 没 有 人 会 这 麽 无 聊 看 我 所 写 的 东 西 可 是 无 所 谓.. 只 想 写 出 心 理 的 话.. 心 情 真 的 好 差 好 差.. 不 知 为 舍 麽 好 想 哭 好 想 哭.. 我 真 的 好 累 好 累.. 累 的 我 好 想 放 弃.. 离 开 世 界 舍 麽 都 不 想 想.. 闭 上 眼 晴.. 一 觉 不 醒.. 可 是 能 吗? 眼 泪 以 干.. 好 累 好 累.. 回 想 起 以 前 的 日 子.. 有 多 麽 开 心..真 的 不 知 道 是 对 的 吗? 有 时 我 肯 本 都 不 知 道 自 己 的 感 觉.. 可 是 还 能 做 舍 麽 呢? 为 唯 一 能 逗 我 笑 的 人 又 到 哪 里 去 了.. 谎 言.. 是 人 都 会 说 谎.. 可 是 一 旦 说 了 好 几 次 就 会 让 人 很 难 让 人 再 相 信.. 就 算 对 方 说 的 是 真.. 都 会 以 为 是 谎.. 无 论 再 折 麽 告 诉 自 己 那 是 真 的 可 是 心 里 却 无 法 说 服.. 我 真 的 好 累.. wait n wait n wait.. till de day tt i regret everything..
* oINkz * ---- Wednesday, January 24, 2007 4:59 AM
hmm.. my first day bk in sch.. so long nv went back seems abit weird.. well.. doze off at my first tut n i doze off within 10mins.. too long no study le.. so paiseh dozing while other ppl presenting.. sometimes.. i realli got mix up wif my own feeling.. i dun even noe them.. noe my own feeling.. recalling.. or seeing something jus duno is it or not.. haha also duno wad i m sayin.. jus got so confused sometime.. but since it already in tis way jus let it be in tis way.. even if wanna change.. tink its hard.,.i feel so tired.. tryin hard to cope wif all my pro.. attachment n my exam.. i duno hw long i can cope wif it.. or shall say take it.. i realli feel so tired.. after exam its attachment again.. exam still haven study.. i alway feel so tired.. feel so stress... exam comin.. gd luck everyone.. dardar one first i tink wish u luck luck.. n i miss u.. sob duno hw long no tok to u le..endin here...wait n wait n wait.. till de days where tiredness go away
* oINkz * ---- Monday, January 22, 2007 6:07 AM
sian ahz... tmr goin bk sch... but.. FINALLY MY ATTACHMENT ENDED FOR DE TIME BEING... jus time being.. hav to go bk soon soon.. haix... well yest met jia ling von rijian n darlin to buy pressie.. grin.. worse at first but ok toward de end.. den it start to rain... haix.. rainy day nwaday.. haix.. den went to darlin hse.. den went eat n go hm.. sort of boring day.. i love pootpootwell... wake up n feel abit moody... hmm... moody mooody.. hee.. wheres my darllin... i hav to go cut hair soon...grin grinok well endin here bbwait n wait n wait.. till when i will die???
* oINkz * ---- Saturday, January 20, 2007 5:17 PM
hmm.. its a thurs morning.. n i hav my attachment ltr on.. wake up n i feel so stress n moody again.. i duno y.. sometime also wonderin whether will there b ppl comin to c my blog.. haha but seems none.. nvm.. jus write to express my own feelin.. i feel so scared now.. wanna cry.. tinkin of sms darlin but guess he is still sleepin.. now onli 7+.. i jus cant sleep well... haix.. i hate my exam time table to de cord.. where got ppl start exam on valentine day de... haiz... den wad worse.. darlin start his exam on de 26.. which is de day i start my attachment.. ask me celebrate early also cannot.. late also cannot... somemore tink 3 to 4 wks cant meet darling...hw m i suppose to study all my 5 subject in 3 wks.. haix.. ppl hav 3 or 4 i hav 5... i m realli tiring out.. each time i jus feel like crying.. but i duno y.. onli when there is ppl wif me.. den i feel abit better.. but sometime i still feel moody all de same.. tink i shld join von guan n si to de depression club huh....everything is so diff now... N DERRICK TAY U BETTER WATCH OUT.. alway say things but nv did it... from my last attachment till now my attachment gonna end.. n my bday.. but i noe de reason y.. but i still bu shuang...!!!!!!! like wanna MIA frm our grp.. misses my friends... dardar... n darlin...wait n wait n wait.. till de day i die.. which i hope is fast.. can i?ps. to darlin.. i wan tt mickey to acc my minnie.. haix.. but dun waste money.. so hard to catch...
* oINkz * ---- Wednesday, January 17, 2007 3:51 PM
HAPPY 13TH MTH!!!!well yest was me n darlin de 1 yr n 1 month tgt.. hee.. went out to buy new yr clothes.. after my pro.. which we mit at 830! ha.. tats early n waiting for jingyi till 940 like tt n cant do anything cox everything is wif her.. if noe early shall mit later ma.. haix.. duno hw long nv hav enough sleep 4+ wake up.. today is de onli day sleep late but den i jus cant.. sleep at 1 and wake up at 830..haix..though things r nt veri happy again in de beginning yest... but still days after tt r happy... i bought 2 shirt.. at 40 dollar hee cheap huh n darling buy a shirt at 39.. hee... i rem i still owe my poot poot something.. a card heehee... its was so fun..haix.. i realli hate now de me.. duno y.. cant zzz well n tend to lose temper easily... i feel so moody nw.. for no reason i will feel so moody.. jus wonderin who can i tok to.. everyone seems so busy...well ending here... hav to do pro soon... haix... today is a borin day... i miss pootpoot...wait n wait n wait... waiting for pootpoot online n for life to end.. yawn~
* oINkz * ---- Saturday, January 13, 2007 4:52 PM
well.. yest was my 19th bday... hmm... old le old le.. last yr of de 1 in front...well let me share wad happen yest... my poly friend giv me a real surprise... they bought me a cake.. n lots of food for my dinner... mostly cakes... tats de first time i cut cake.. n those who i noe nt even a wk also share de pressent n help me celebrate.. even my clincal instructor share de present.. tats realli touchin... thanks guy lot..well.. den after my attachment.. darlin... along wif von n si came to giv me another suprise.. haha.. i got so shock... nv even expected that.. thanks guy... hmm.. tot shld hav more ppl one huh.. haha.. well... thanks darling for his effort to buy a big cake so i can cut... even though it nt de first one... but to me its de first.. cox u bought it.. haha.. thankz de 3 of u for de big suprise.. n thanks dar for de suggestion of tt but u didnt manage to come haha...well.. though sat is de last time i c all my friends.. guan ah dar ah.. but feel as if i long time nv c them le sort of miss them nw... n nw dun even hav time to mit darlin.. mit also mit awhile haix...wake up wif a moody mode again.. duno y.. wonderin whu i can realli tok to... shall go attachment n enjoy myself soon.. though its bored.. but there is someone who can tok n play wif me...thanks ppl for everything.. frm sat to my bday yest.. i m touched.. tink tis yr is my most memorable bday.. thanks =)wait n wait n wait ... till de day.. i sleep n nt wakin up.. sleepin is nice..
* oINkz * ---- Tuesday, January 09, 2007 5:27 PM
well another wk its here.. my bday wk.. but still no mood for it.. i realli cant stand it anymore.. i cant sleep well.. i m tired.. its been a long time i haven feel such moody before.. veri moody.. n yet tmr is my bday.. sometime.. i realli wanted to find someone to tok to.. to brighten my mood but there was realli no one there i can find.. nt even darling.. ending up i can onli find my booster or a new comer in my rm.. minnie mouse to cry.. they r nw my fav item in my rm ^^
sometime wad i say i wan or dun wan.. may nt realli b wad i realli feel in my heart..
attachment ltr at 1.. so boring.. i prefer morning.. still hav to force myself to smile.. n laugh n joke n tryin nt to lose my temper.. i hate tt.. like putting a fake mask but i still hav to.. wonderin can i make it.. there's no one to cheer me up bfore goin.. tot of finding darlin 1st b4 gg attachment but soon giv tt idea up..
online saw dar n ah woo.. but they r in sch.. so didnt talk much as well..
ending here.. go c vcd hao le..
wait n wait n wait.. till de day where life is ending...
* oINkz * ---- Monday, January 08, 2007 4:37 PM
wEll.. yEst we wEnt to cElebrAte mY bdAy... IT wAs So fUnny cyCling... n thEy chEer mY mOod uP.. thANkz lOtz... hEe.. wE went cycling yest at east coast... ppl who r great friends of mine attend... my lovely girlfriends... jia..guan..von..jialing and for de guyz r wee kiat.. n lastly..my love one.. darlin.. hee.. sad tt some didnt manage to turn up cox got something on.. si n wei he.. well niao.. hmm.. okie lo.. i treat tt at least he nid work tts y nv turn up.. at least wh ask after his work sia though he go off... hee we take lotz of photo.. but.. haven get them yet... so nv post up.. grin*hmm.. heard frm von tt ask him wan share present nt.. he nv even reply.. wad kind of friend is tis... he better buy me a present or treat me eat something.. hump*.. at least reply them ma.. no wonder von so tu lan.. dun say her.. me too.. yest still reply me n jx.. say he find one day help me celebrate,, ha! by de time its already over man.. n u will take de effort cai guai.. treat u so gd yet tis return.. if ur gf dun wan den i nth to say lo.. wonderin wads de real reason tt stay bhind... dun say liao so pek chek... well.. morning wake up.. feelin moody again.. feel so lost n scared i duno y..wait n wait n wait... till de day.. l... faster end... so boring
* oINkz * ---- Saturday, January 06, 2007 5:27 PM
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