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bad mood.. realli bad mood.. jus duno y i've been so down ever since i enter poly.. i keep telling myself i muz be happi.. there is even times when i m so scared of going sch...today sch start as 1 as lesson has been cancel bfore tt.. reach sch at ard 10 to do my pro.. when i reach sch.. i jus happen to noe tt they hav mit early to go for bio lab..but ended up cant go in cox no cher.. n no one tell me or ask me whether i wan to go nt.. i felt so left out.. i realli feel a diff world frm them.. i alway tell myself mayb i will adapt it one day.. n force myself to study hard.. but till now.. i still find it hard.. i alway feel tt i cant click well... though i joke n laugh...i alway look forward to ending of sch.. ending my pro.. so that i can mit my darlin or my friends... but cox of pro.. i hardly hav de time to mit my friend.. but today i dun look forward to finish my pro.. happily lookin forward to it at 1st but soon it break me even further.. after tt thing.. i try to find someone.. onli wif my darlin n my sec friend.. i nv feel tt i m alone.. i tried callin ppl... tried si.. but she didnt pick up de call.. n dar was wif ah woo.. thinkin of callin guan jus recall tt she is sleepin n by de time she reach i hav to go hm.. or von.. but i noe she is busy wif her sch stuff so i cancel de tots of callin her.. i even called niao...but guess he is wif his gf cox of the tone he toks..still rem de past.. wherever hw many ppl nt free no one there for me.. there is still a chance for someone to acc me..niao.. but nw he has his gf.. but i dun blame him..cox gf is more impt.. but i jus keep havin de feelin he is avoiding us..i duno whether i'm tinkin too much or wad cox of something stupid i say..it teaches me nt to get trick so easily.. n trust ppl.. i jus hope i nv say all tt... realli stupid of me to get trick..its was then i felt more lonely cox cant find anyone...holdin bk my tears.. i msg my dar.. she keep askin me to join ah woo n her.. n finalli i went along.. to mit the 2 of them.. i try to make myself laugh n joke wif them.. n it make me feel better.. at tt moment of time.. n thanks dar for being de lightbulb n acc me... even tot of goin shoppin alone as spend as much $ as i could like de past.. luckily dar bring me to somewhere nth to shop n save my $..
its onli when i wif my sec friends.. tt i feel my exist.. endin here.. bye...
* oINkz * ---- Thursday, November 30, 2006 7:15 AM
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