bad mood.. realli bad mood.. jus duno y i've been so down ever since i enter poly.. i keep telling myself i muz be happi.. there is even times when i m so scared of going sch...

today sch start as 1 as lesson has been cancel bfore tt.. reach sch at ard 10 to do my pro.. when i reach sch.. i jus happen to noe tt they hav mit early to go for bio lab..but ended up cant go in cox no cher.. n no one tell me or ask me whether i wan to go nt.. i felt so left out.. i realli feel a diff world frm them.. i alway tell myself mayb i will adapt it one day.. n force myself to study hard.. but till now.. i still find it hard.. i alway feel tt i cant click well... though i joke n laugh...

i alway look forward to ending of sch.. ending my pro.. so that i can mit my darlin or my friends... but cox of pro.. i hardly hav de time to mit my friend.. but today i dun look forward to finish my pro.. happily lookin forward to it at 1st but soon it break me even further.. after tt thing.. i try to find someone.. onli wif my darlin n my sec friend.. i nv feel tt i m alone.. i tried callin ppl... tried si.. but she didnt pick up de call.. n dar was wif ah woo.. thinkin of callin guan jus recall tt she is sleepin n by de time she reach i hav to go hm.. or von.. but i noe she is busy wif her sch stuff so i cancel de tots of callin her.. i even called niao...but guess he is wif his gf cox of the tone he toks..

still rem de past.. wherever hw many ppl nt free no one there for me.. there is still a chance for someone to acc me..niao.. but nw he has his gf.. but i dun blame him..cox gf is more impt.. but i jus keep havin de feelin he is avoiding us..i duno whether i'm tinkin too much or wad cox of something stupid i say..it teaches me nt to get trick so easily.. n trust ppl.. i jus hope i nv say all tt... realli stupid of me to get trick..

its was then i felt more lonely cox cant find anyone...holdin bk my tears.. i msg my dar.. she keep askin me to join ah woo n her.. n finalli i went along.. to mit the 2 of them.. i try to make myself laugh n joke wif them.. n it make me feel better.. at tt moment of time.. n thanks dar for being de lightbulb n acc me... even tot of goin shoppin alone as spend as much $ as i could like de past.. luckily dar bring me to somewhere nth to shop n save my $..

its onli when i wif my sec friends.. tt i feel my exist.. endin here.. bye...

well sch days again n i hate it.. woke up n find my nephew occupyin de tv so here i m online awhile.. haix .. sch again ltr on.. gettin tired of it.. test tmr somemore.. didnt realli hav de time to study.. well... haix

anyway we went to celebrate guan de bday on sat.. quite a fun day.. went to eat at kfc.. a CUTE lady went to say no outside cake.. or food? hmm.. nw den i noe kfc gt cake.. haha.. spoilt my mood still diao us.. humpz.. eye big liao bu qi ah :v.. den went pool.. hee... guan played de most she is de bday girl.. muahaha.. den guan went mit her friend.. n von jx n me went to makan.. coffee.. n .. something niceeee.. yummy... hee... well cant save photo frm dar.. n my hp usb sort.. shall upload de photo next time

den von went hm.. tats left wif me n my darlin.. went shoppin awhile but time was short so didnt realli shop much n i didnt manage to buy things i wan to buy.. so sad.. but darlin bring me to eat curry fish head hehe... but yuck.. so many scale.. erm.. i duno hw to spell.. hee... den he came me hse watch tv.. haha.. den go hm lo.. happi time alway end fast.. haiz...

doesnt look forward to tmr at all.. test.. 2 somemore n pro.. so unfair.. i wan watch movie.. den cannot .. y she wan go take her pay den can dun do.. argz... everytime i c her it simply spoilt my mood.. y... haix.. hate gg sch but hav to.. end here hav to go sch soon... bye...

i m feelin terrible.. realli terrible.. feel like cryin.. so tired realli tired of everythin.. i already try so hard to adapt to sch.. so hard realli hard.. but i still cant.. i find it hard to click wif de ppl in my class.. mayb i can get quite ok wif onli 1 or 2.. but sometime none... like today.. though i smile but deep inside i feel like cryin..

goin crazy wif all de sch stuff.. things forever cant finish.. finish one pro test come.. finish another pro.. another test com.. den finish pro.. attachment come.. finish attachment pro n test come again when can i finish it?? i m tired.. no matter hw i study still cant get gd result.. hai... de result will b send to SGH somemore.. still muz get a result acceptable frm them...realli regret takin bond now.. i regret... but wad de use of regret...

mit si n yo jus now.. though they make my mood abit happier.. but still of no use...but i feel more relax wif them.. but nw theres hardly time to mit.. but nw things r slowly changin.. i dun wish to say..

i tired.. i wan to zzz.. zzz till nv awake.. but cant... endin here byebye

went out yest..bought things den went to singapore river wif darlin haha.. couldnt decide where to go.. at 1st board bus 13 cox planning to go east coast... den halfway dwn we decided to go singapore river.. hee i suggested.. so clever of me bleah* .. den went there lo.. bought our food n sit bside de river to eat.. hee... den me n darlin watch de scenery.. den went hm lo.. sob.. next wk tink cant mit darlin out to play at all.. i got test.. n sometime he end 6.. sob...

i realli hate sun.. make me moody....

endin here.. byebye

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hee.. went to vivo city wif darlin.. hmm.. tink de shop there all nt suit for me sia.. hee.. ohh.. de scenery is so nice there.. got tt big big cruise wow so big.. n so beautiful.. wonderin when can i board tt big big cruise.. wif my darlin .. tinks tt wld be long long away.. cox cant go tour wif frend n dun hav de $$ also.. n we go tour in a boat or ship? nth inside one.. haha.. i like tt place.. weee... had a great time wif darlin too.. though veri short time there... i wan go tour wif darlin sob..

hEres a pic of the cruise:
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hee.. finalli a day without pro..but darlin sch end at 6.. ended up he end at 4+.. hump... so i went to mit my dardar instead.. n she giv me a candy n bisuit.. de biscuit so cute n nice.. i like tt candy.. hee.. one of my fav candy.. i hardly like candy sia

hEre is the candY n biscuit.. thanks my dar













we take some photo as well.. bleah... retarded me.. n dar lickin me

den si came along.. hee so long no c her.. she is de usual her.. den halkal come along n we go seperate way.. oh ya.. happy 30mth to my dar n ah woo.. hee.. den me n si went arcade n bk hm.. sad tt guan hav to mit ppl.. though time was short but its rarely tt we hav time to mit.. thz dar for de thing hee..

haix.. so stress wif sch.. pro.. n hav to face tt girl.. de one de one tt i dun like.. onli gd to ppl tt she can benefit frm i guess.. everyday is she make my mood bad.. tt girl still same pro as her.. haix n more pro comin.. test.. n attachment.. bless me..

wadever it is.. wadever that is..wadever.. plz tink of ppl first.. n nt onli urself.. even one have their nan chu also.. it hurts to c tt.. but i will jus treat tt i c none.. cox tts de best thing to do...

sob i m broke.. 20+ gone tmr.. luckily manage get bk some $$ for darlin.. if nt he lose 40+ haha... tmr no money makan liao.. ending here byebye..

hmm.. intending to study cox dun feel like comin online.. but den i flip n flip.. but duno wad the bk is tokin so half an hr ltr.. i decide nt to study it another.. test next wed.. HOW? haix.. so here i come online.. searchin for guan.. but she is nt ard.. hump*

haix.. sometime when i heard tt song... remind me of tt time in k box.. long long long long long ago.. somewhere last yr i guess... wonderin wld things be diff?? it make me sad... haix.. wonderin wad wld happen another way round...

aniway yest was de 13th.. me n my darling de 11th mth anni.. n a day where i hav to go SGH check up.. n darlin went wif me.. thz.. its simply a waste of money.. went in n c de doc for not more den 2min i guess n it cause 21dollar.. haix.. if i noe early i wun go for tt appt!... after tt went to visit my ah mu.. haix.. she is hospitizalise n she look so weak... after tt went to eat steamboat wif darling.. though it was short but overall fun..

haix.. i'm feelin moody... still.. duno y...

i realli miss my dar.. wonderin when will de next time i c her... de onli way i can contact her is through her blog.. sob.. coz i didnt have to chance to c her online.. hmm... sadz...

after online.. i realise tt it make my mood even dwn.. tink rarely will online now.. unless come find ppl hehe..going off soon..
endin here.. bye...

since i wake up early den usual n theres is nth i can do i might as well cum online bahz.. charge MP3.. duno no batt hw long le.. haix...

now.. i hate to online.. i hate it.... i hate com.. so tink ppl will rarely c me online nw.. nt as often as de past where almost everyday can c me online.. but i will still on.. when i hav to do pro and of cox to find my friends to chat esp my dar.. cox rarely c her online.. tinks msn is de onli way to stay in contact wif them cox everyone is busy wif schs.. n hard to mit... i rather watch tv now.. or maybe spend sometime on study? cox i duno wad i'm studyin again haix so stress...

sometimes things will be better if u didnt noe de truth.. u rather noe de fake ones.. i guess.. but weird of ppl sense.. even if they noe tat de true will be hurtful or its better for u nt to noe de truth.. they will still go n find out de truth n hurt themselve...

my eyelids look so weird nw... de double eyelids look so ming xian.. hw i wish can return to the past.. where there is ppl for me to hug when i feel sad n shoulder to lend when i wan cry.. but i noe things can go bk.. now... i can onli hug my booster... my smelly booster... tink now de closest thing to me is my booster.. full of saliva n tears... *hug*

ben lai i feel better when i wake up but after cing tt it make me return to hw i feel last night..

i miss my friends.. dardar...

endin here.. still hav to SGH ltr... checkup sianz....

finally i have done wif my blog.. finally!!! have been tryin to fix it for days

yest went shopping wif darlin.. n wanna buy things but ended up bought nth cox times up n have to go hm.. hump nv had enough fun yet.. i wan shoppin nvm.. anyway it was fun

sUn again.. haix.. n i m alway havin sun blues.. duno y.. nv feel.. every sun.. n tends to wake up real early... n no one online.. wait n wait n finalli si online.. after chattin wif si.. she make my mood bit better.. though nt all but still chattin wif her make me better... i love u soo much...

tinkin.. maybe i still cant compared to tt thing.. tt veri thing..it make feel so.. sometime i jus tink tt i m realli silly.. alway wait n hope for thing tt i noe it wun happen.. realli silly.. haix...

endin here.. byeeeeee

hmm... recently hav been busy wif my project so no time to type blog.. finally today i m free... hee...

firstly.. i have to wish my dardar HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY!!!..at 8Nov hehe.. though is belated in tis blog hee cox no time update on her bday tt day.. hee.. feel so bad sia.. make her walk all de way back to my sch jus to take her present.. shld be me go find her sia.. hee.. given her a present n a cake.. bought frm my sch.. haha luckily sch got candle cox study morning den no time buy a cake for her... hee.. hope u like de cake we specially bought n de present we all giv + i giv hee....

as for today is rijian birthday.. hee.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him too.. after sch went to pass him present.. hee he seems to like it... tts glad.. he say de cap is cool... cox he msg guan =.= ... den went to mit lao de n chun de.. has been a long time since we last mit.. went to play pool lo... hee.. as usual den they go eat we go c them eat.. hehe.... so fun suaning chun... tinking of times when we working.. though noe them nt tt long but days wif them r alway happy... hump* didnt win any game today... lose to de 3 of them!!!

haix ... feeling so moody lately.. duno y... endin here.. byeeeeee

mmm... can say i recover frm my illness?? hope so.. hee muz wait till check up on de 13 nov at SGH.. hai.. of all date.. muz gana tt date.. hump.. finally got my sound back....

haix.. hav been busy wif project lately.. everyday also stay.. sat also go back.. i m going bonker wif it.. hai.. n of all ppl y muz i be in de same grp as HER.. she jus make my day bad today.. i simply hate her attitude.. de attitude she giv me n others seems diff.. dun bcox u my di de mei den can wad ok.. forget it.. U SPOILT MY MOOD TODAY.. of cox also cox i m moody today.. haix.... pro pro pro...

all cox of pro i can hardly go out play after sch... even days outside wif darlin also less.. haix... pathetic.. argz.. tinkin of u.. realli spoilt my mood.. onli GD to ppl tt will benefit u.. oh ya.. argz... damn it.. arhz...

dun say tt.. hee dar bday is comin she is 18 soon le.. hee... yeah.. someone to go clubbing wif... haha nah.. i dun go to tt kind of places...

oh n tiger.. she put on her braces.. clap clap for our brave tiger.. muz be pain.. hmmm...

end here.. byebye

WeLcome!~
enJoy uR sTAy hEre

* chEryL
* 09/09/1988

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