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i m realli tired.. i realli cant stand it anymore.. all de things.. i try to make myself adapt to all de changes.. sch.. new friends.. close friends all seperated.. studies.. my bond..but things jus start coming to me.. esp tat matter.. though i said i dun wanna care anymore but its realli hard.. ur words realli scared me.. i noe u dun meant it.. i m now so scared to u.. scared of every word u say.. cing u make me recall everything.. i jus hope everything will settle soon.. i m now so scared of cing u n tokin to u.. its nt ur fault.. jus my own mental pro.. i m jus crazy.. y jus cant u be a real man facing it.. at least it make me feel better.. but i noe u wun.. hw i wish i can jus get tat depress mood away.. its reali making me crazy... the attitude u giv me jus nw tryin make my mood even depress... i jus wanna go hm... its all started wif me.. its my fault.. makin all tis thing happeningi tried hard to be happi wif my friends.. n get back my past me.. i tried hard.. manage to be happi but y everytime when i m happy u spoilt me... makin me all depress again.. its nt ur fault.. jus that i m nt feeling realli gd.. for de moment i dun wanna c or tok to u on phone anymore till de day that its settle.. but i tink it wun... i rather be alone den facing u..it jus hurt me.. n bring me to that feeling that i wan to kick it away... i jus feeling like closing myself alone in a small black room.. away frm de world.. staring into space.. doin nth.. sleepin all de way... dun care bout anything outside de world.. i jus wan to be a sleeping beauty.. nv wake up.. maybe by writing all tis out may make me feel better... but i dun tink it does any effect..if tat somebody u miracle happen to pass by my blog n c tis.. jus dun come find me.. i m scared... when i m better.. i will contact u myself...finding myself on de route to depression.....
* oINkz * ---- Thursday, August 24, 2006 3:47 AM
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